So cold :P

The temperature is steadily declining and I can really feel the difference as I cycle to school. I no longer feel like I'm toasting in the oven that is my winter coat, but actually am comfortable. It's a whole different story with the rest of my body that isn't covered by a coat. Everything else becomes numb and freezing cold, especially the extremities. Even though it's torture being frozen and thawed every day, I enjoy it. I've been looking forward to experiencing winter for a long time. Hopefully the novelty of it won't wear off too soon.

My life is a mess. I need to start being stern with myself. Trying to have an iron wall against your own will is very difficult because you are best at convincing yourself. So the tough love begins. It does help that a lot of my favourite tv-shows are on hiatus. Back to work I go, or maybe some sleep first :P

My little drawings

For a few years I've had this Dutch book that teaches you how to draw elves. I finally got around to really trying it, so here are the results :D I must apologize in advance for the quality of the pictures. Hope you like them!

Frustrations

Just recently, I watched two Japanese anime movies that had been dubbed. They were 'Spirited Away' and 'Howl's Moving Castle' by Hayao Miyazaki. They were both directed by him and were both wonderful movies. 'Spirited Away' was so different from today's fantasy movies revolving around vampires and werewolves. The movie was enriched with so much culture and I was fascinated by the story. Even though the ending made me want to punch a hole in the wall, or at least try to, it was such a beautiful movie. I recommend that you guys go and watch, it's so enchanting.

The other one, 'Howl's Moving Castle', was so good that I watched it twice in the course of 24 hours. It was adapted from Diana Wynne Jones' book by the same name. I have only read one of her books before, 'The Merlin Conspiracy'. That book was incredible, because she had created this set of worlds that interlocked with ours. It creates a feeling different from Narnia, where it's more like a dreamworld, and instead creates an alternate or parallel dimension to ours. Similar to the 'Golden Compass'. Her books just make me so curious to what will happen with the characters, and after having seen the movie, I desperately want to read the book. The movie had that perfect blend of humour, adventure, and romance. Sadly enough, the library here doesn't have it, so I will probably have to buy it or find somebody to borrow it from.

Now back to reading my favourite book series, I realized that I can't take the endings of books. They just make me feel so upset because I have become so attached to the characters. I immerse myself in the world the author has created and never want to leave it.

And the 'fun' has begun

So, I have now officially started my personal project. Yippee!!! Can't you hear the glee in my voice? so far I am only researching, but my product is due in January...so lots of fun work up ahead. I am so swamped again. I have no idea how I managed to do everything back in KL. Now that I think about it, I got good grades, did well on the swim team, went to dutch lessons and had piano lessons. It's a freaking miracle. Here, all I do is school work, but I feel more stressed out than back home. It could also be because the transition from 9th grade to 10th grade is a tough one. So I guess that is my cue to get back to work.

Anyone who is reading this, feel free to comment; I like reading what others have to say, strangers or not.

Hands full

I feel like I'm juggling so many things. I have my school work, the thoughts in my head that I should continue swimming and piano, and the hobbies that I want to do. It just seems like there aren't enough hours in the day, or days in a year, to do all of these things. I guess one can blame all the TV series that seem to dominate our free time. Occupying our attention when we could be spending that time doing other things. Of course there's always the option of multi-tasking, but I feel so much less productive when doing so. If only sleep was obsolete and one could spend those precious hours on other activities.
Moving on, to whoever reads this blog, I will be, or at least trying to, write a story in my free time. On top of that I will be writing a story for my personal project. See what I mean with having my hands full? Hopefully I will be able to publish both stories on Wattpad, if not, I will at least publish the story that is not meant for the personal project. Once it is posted on Wattpad I will post the link and you can provide feedback or just read it :D
So I'm going to get back to writing my story. I don't know how it is going to go though because this is my first attempt at writing this detailed. I normally tend to skim over the details, and scenes, once I passed the exciting introduction of the story. Bye bye then :D

Freaking....OUT!!

hey whoever is here :D
This is going to be a really quick post. For school, I have to do a Personal Project. I'm kind of lost, because most of the year already started before the summer holidays. This seems like a really cool project, but I have to pick something by tomorrow!! I have some ideas, but i'm scared to actually pick anything, because it will be a huge commitment! To anyone who is reading this, feedback please?

-Teach teens about a problem (like racism, bullying, internet safety or something) through writing a story
-Writing my own version of a famous story, and incorporating the moral from that story into mine (Shakespeare?)
-Putting together a book list, that I will have read all the books of, and criticized them
-Help aspiring authors realize their dreams by writing my own story (wattpad?)

It would be really helpful if I could get advice, so please leave a comment :)

New place, same old problems

Hey! whoever is reading this blog....

I've recently moved to Holland, and started school a little more than a week ago. To say that things would be different would be an understatement. The school, the culture, least to say the weather, all of it is different. I miss my friends so much!

On to what I really wanted to talk, or write, about. I came to this idea because of several things. We recently touched on communism and liberalism in humanities, and my other source of inspiration I will mention in a bit. Whether or not one believes in god, most of us like to believe that we are destined to do something. Whether it be to find that one special person or to get that amazing career. Many of teachers keep telling me that we have a responsibility to the rest of the world to help out in any way we can. You could always interpret that as giving to the needy, recycling, simply sacrificing some of your own belongings or time to those that could have use of them. However, at times when I'm feeling rather dependent on fate, I like to believe that whoever put us on earth or whatever powers of forces control our fates, made us who we are for a reason. This always makes me wonder whether we were given our talents for a reason. Just imagine, somewhere out there, there could be a child in pre-school or a baby being born, or even just one of us teenagers at school, who could cure cancer, invent the new green technology, or do anything. The possibilities are endless.

But...what would happen if those future heroes decided to do something else with their lives, or were never given the chance to discover their talents? Of course, it's important that everyone has a choice in their life, but what about those talents? They go to waste or are used in a field where they are not used to their full capability. An example of this is Willard Wiggan, he is an artist who makes sculptures as small as the head of a pin. I understand that he loves being an artist and this is his calling, but I wonder if his skills could be put to better use. He would make an amazing surgeon and could save so many lives. This is a sombering thought, because how many people around the world could be in similar situations like this? To make myself feel better I tell myself that whatever happened was meant to be, and maybe Willard Wiggan would be an amazing surgeon, but that is just not the way the world is.

Summer

Summer vacation is always so contradicting. It's freaking amazing because school is finished, which is good because my brain is fried. However, especially at my school, there are so many people leaving, including me. I never thought the day would come where I would have to leave. I don't have much else to say because I'm just too confused and upset.

WEEKEND!

Phew... this was a very tiring week. Swim practice to the max. For once I thought that conflict might cease for the remainder of the year between my friends, but no such luck. And this time there is trouble between two of my good friends. sigh... oh well. Off to have some fun tonight, and I 'plan' to really get serious about school from now on. Better start growing that rice.

Jumble of Thoughts

Sometimes I wonder how I even function in school. There is a giant mess of thoughts and other crap rolling around in my mind. I was bored and couldn't bother starting my homework, bad case of laziness, so I started reading the posts on LGMH. They are so touching, but then there is also the other side of my brain that also has to be so pessimistic. Double personality much... Well, anyways, have to go to sleep soon, otherwise I will pass out from boredom and fatigue during dutch school, on a saturday! Later :)

I'm Back

Hey, nobody.
I think. I think nobody is reading this, but I'm okay with that. My friend is also making a blog, though I might not let her read this. However, she already found the url so there is nothing I can do. School started, high school..... It's not so different, except that my motivation to work has plummeted, a lot. Sometimes I wonder who I am talking to when I am writing this. It could be god, my own mind, or just somebody out there. I'll find out one day. Well gotta get back to work, school.....

Liberty

The years are going by so fast. Today was my 2nd last day of school, and I perfectly remember that same day a year ago as if it was yesterday. Once again these last few days are accompanied with a melancholy feeling. Also once again, some of my friends are leaving for different countries.
Now that I think about it, since nobody is reading this, or at least that is what I think, I can write pretty personal stuff on here. Lets see, what do I want to say that I don't dare say to any of my friends? I got a whole list.
Recently I have become pretty casual about work. I procrastinate and then wake up early to get my homework done the day it is due. The reason this habit continues is that I still manage to get pretty good grades. Another example of this is that I barely studied for any of my exams, yet I still did really well on them. What also doesn't help my slacking off is the fact that I recently did the SAT's and got quite good scores. When I first heard from my school counselor that I had been volunteered to participate in a program where I could take the SAT's at an earlier age, I was almost definite that I was going to fail. A few weeks after taking the test I got my scores back. I was baffled. My scores were amazing, and if I ever retook the SAT's again I would probably do really well.
If I had told most of my friends this, they would've probably said that I was showing off. Why can't I show off? I am proud of what I have accomplished, and I want to be recognized for my accomplishments. Sometimes I wonder if that is too much to ask.
I think this blog will be beneficial to me, there is no need to pretend or "beautify", I can just be myself. Of course to a certain extent :)

Oh, Crap

I was exploring some of the features on blogger program thing, so I started viewing the other blogs. Right then my hopes went out the window. When I had started this blog I was secretly hoping that somebody would stumble upon my blog and I would become famous. Something similar to Anne Frank. I feel so stupid. The chances of that actually happening are very slim. This actually makes me think of the movie "He's Just Not That Into You." Anyone who has seen the movie will probably remember the part where Justin Long is talking about rules and exceptions. He is so right. At school, when you ask a teenager what they want to be when they grow up, in my age group, they mostly say a phrase similar to this, "I want to be famous and rich." I'm not saying that nobody has a chance of becoming famous, but lots of people feel so rejected when they don't become famous.
This has made me realize that I don't want to be famous. I just want somebody to know me for my writing. Nothing else. Not what I look like, what kind of background I have, my grades or my friends. I just want somebody to read what I write. Of course it would help if they like what I wrote. :)
Anyways, I think I've written enough for now, or actually I want to write more, but I can leave my thoughts for later.

A New Start

This is my first time writing a blog when it's not related to schoolwork. I don't expect anyone to read this, not even a single person. The reason I made this blog is just to reflect on myself. Kind of like a digital diary. It might seem strange to be talking to yourself while people can read your every thought, but as long as I remain anonymous, there shouldn't be a problem.
I am not trying to entertain people, so don't expect to be entertained. This is just my point of view on the world and my life, a blue point of view.