Liberty

The years are going by so fast. Today was my 2nd last day of school, and I perfectly remember that same day a year ago as if it was yesterday. Once again these last few days are accompanied with a melancholy feeling. Also once again, some of my friends are leaving for different countries.
Now that I think about it, since nobody is reading this, or at least that is what I think, I can write pretty personal stuff on here. Lets see, what do I want to say that I don't dare say to any of my friends? I got a whole list.
Recently I have become pretty casual about work. I procrastinate and then wake up early to get my homework done the day it is due. The reason this habit continues is that I still manage to get pretty good grades. Another example of this is that I barely studied for any of my exams, yet I still did really well on them. What also doesn't help my slacking off is the fact that I recently did the SAT's and got quite good scores. When I first heard from my school counselor that I had been volunteered to participate in a program where I could take the SAT's at an earlier age, I was almost definite that I was going to fail. A few weeks after taking the test I got my scores back. I was baffled. My scores were amazing, and if I ever retook the SAT's again I would probably do really well.
If I had told most of my friends this, they would've probably said that I was showing off. Why can't I show off? I am proud of what I have accomplished, and I want to be recognized for my accomplishments. Sometimes I wonder if that is too much to ask.
I think this blog will be beneficial to me, there is no need to pretend or "beautify", I can just be myself. Of course to a certain extent :)

Oh, Crap

I was exploring some of the features on blogger program thing, so I started viewing the other blogs. Right then my hopes went out the window. When I had started this blog I was secretly hoping that somebody would stumble upon my blog and I would become famous. Something similar to Anne Frank. I feel so stupid. The chances of that actually happening are very slim. This actually makes me think of the movie "He's Just Not That Into You." Anyone who has seen the movie will probably remember the part where Justin Long is talking about rules and exceptions. He is so right. At school, when you ask a teenager what they want to be when they grow up, in my age group, they mostly say a phrase similar to this, "I want to be famous and rich." I'm not saying that nobody has a chance of becoming famous, but lots of people feel so rejected when they don't become famous.
This has made me realize that I don't want to be famous. I just want somebody to know me for my writing. Nothing else. Not what I look like, what kind of background I have, my grades or my friends. I just want somebody to read what I write. Of course it would help if they like what I wrote. :)
Anyways, I think I've written enough for now, or actually I want to write more, but I can leave my thoughts for later.

A New Start

This is my first time writing a blog when it's not related to schoolwork. I don't expect anyone to read this, not even a single person. The reason I made this blog is just to reflect on myself. Kind of like a digital diary. It might seem strange to be talking to yourself while people can read your every thought, but as long as I remain anonymous, there shouldn't be a problem.
I am not trying to entertain people, so don't expect to be entertained. This is just my point of view on the world and my life, a blue point of view.